As I have been aging, I have been seeing things from a different perspective.
I have really been convinced of the importance of seeking to walk with, in , through Jesus each day. When I do this , I am more at peace because I feel I am in His Will and I am doing what He wants with my time. Whatever things come into my daily life are coming from and through His hands---He controls these and He will give me the help to face each one.
But I have found Romans 7 to be true---we do not often do what we want to do--there is a warfare.
I also have found that when I look back on my life I see more and more of the sins and mistakes I have made.......mostly it revolves around choosing self above others. When I am so into self , I do not realize what or how I am affecting others. I think of the old song about More of Jesus I would know----That is it in a nutshell---
When others , such as our children, look at my life, they see it differently then I do. This shows me how each of us can have a different perception of the same event and how important it is for me to ask for Christ's eyes, not my eyes. I am so glad for His redemption---His washing of our sins---for even when I am trying to do my best, I am failing.